I plan on doing a few updates throughout the month based on my 2013 agenda. Not too often so I don't bore you ;) Half of me wonders if anyone cares what I write about these updates. (I personally find the fun posts a lot more... fun!) The other half of me wonders what I'll think about these posts when I look back in a year, or two years, or whenever. I look back at old posts like this one from March 2010 and I think about how much I have changed.
I think it's equivalent to marking my height against the wall. After a three inch growth spurt at Georgetown, I'm definitely done physically growing. But there are so many ways in which I've grown and continue to grow. The changes aren't as evident like they once were, but they're there.
So back to January... it's all about Work Life.
Now it's interesting because it's only been a week. Like just about everyone, I struggled to maintain the goals I had. I was super gung-ho about launching into the New Year on the right foot.
Two days in, however, and I was having strange feelings of guilt. I was actually taking the time to do personal things like reading and simply watching a movie on Netflix and even just texting friends for hours. I could feel the inkling of guilt growing. I felt it more so after I finished the fun and started working again. Without much thinking, I was annoyed that all the time I was spending on answering text messages, I could have been answering emails. All the time I spent watching Netflix could have been spent "getting ahead" for the following day. It didn't feel good. And I realized that it was misconstrued on my part, but I still couldn't help feeling that way.
And then the next day, I found myself leaving the office past midnight. I arrived at 7:30am and had a regular day of meetings and the usual. We had an event and then sat around talking super late into the night. It's confusing when your friends with work friends and it's confusing when you actually really like what you do. Levo is really a great fit and I learn the absolute most when I have no idea what I'm doing...
Part of me thinks that I should be putting more space between work and my personal life. But at the same time, I'm just doing what feels right. I think having a job where I clocked in at 9 and clocked out at 5 every day would be boring!! I like to work.
As with so many things, it seems to come down to doing what you love and doing what feels right. What I'm doing may not be typical, but it seems to be working for me. (Although, I would like to feel less guilty about enjoying time off!!!)
In the end, I don't think I have definitive answers, and there is certainly plenty of time to sort through these thoughts. I think the process of figuring it all out is the real fun anyway!
Did you survive Week 1 of New Year's Resolutions?