I am really, really quite proud of myself for taking a legitimate break. I know that 2013 is going to be a big and exciting year and I wanted to prepare for it fully. I had convinced myself that I definitely needed to be well-rested coming into the new year, but I wasn't quite sure if it would actually happen.
The only time I've actually taken a real break was last year's trip to Mexico. Other than that, I always have something big going on or lots of little things. Crew training consumed most of my breaks between high school and college. And during the summers I was always working on something or cooking up some sort of project.
I scheduled some blog posts, ignored my email inbox, and took entire afternoons off to explore and nap and knit and watch Netflix.
It. Was. Amazing.
The first few days were really challenging actually. Like clockwork, I was waking up at 5:05 unprompted by an unset alarm. Bodies are so weird how they get synced up to schedules... but, of course, the schedule was broken after two days of lounging in bed after the sun rose. Staying up to 2am staring at a screen is a lot more fun when it's an indie film rather than an Excel spreadsheet.
Frankly, the break couldn't have come at a better time. (Funny how things work out like that.) I was seriously beginning to feel frayed and completely run down. After months of soul searching, I decided to let go of a few things and will be tying up a few loose ends through the first quarter. I'm all for being super busy and driven and excelling, but I was (am?) overcommitted. It's impossible to do things 100% well (or really even 90% well) when you've got too many things on your plate.
Right now, I feel like I have been plugged into the wall.
I went to bed really late last night because I was too deep into conversation to realize that it was nearing my wakeup call. I was expecting to feel gloomy about having to wake up at dawn, put on real clothes, and journey downtown for work. Instead, I nearly leapt out of bed. Completely ready to start the day.
Just like Starbucks' return to the plain white cup, I am ready for normalcy and routine.