So I’m the first one to know that I’m probably a little bit too into working. I love working and sometimes it can turn into an unhealthy situation. In theory, I think that I’d love to sit somewhere on a beach with (or even without) a book. In fact, I often daydream about that.
But in practice, I have hard time relaxing and I tend to get bored super fast. Even watching an episode of television without doing something else drives me insane.
Another component to the equation that I really do know, but tend to not acknowledge, is that I don’t like slowing down because then I may actually have time to deal with stuff. You know, dealing with friend issues, boy issues, personal issues.
As much as I’m a self-proclaimed workaholic, I’m even more self-proclaimed bottler. I don’t intentionally bottle things up, but I just prefer not to deal with things as they arise. Too sticky and I’d simply rather not. (This is absolutely terrible and causes way more issues in the long run, ugh. When will I learn?)
The other week, I definitely was forced to slow down. I had to really take a step back from just about everything. Something that normally wouldn’t have been a big deal put me over the edge and I just had to seriously pump the brakes. (Hence why I booked an impromptu trip back to Florida.)
The one thing that I didn’t want to happen ended up being exactly what I needed to happen. I needed to sort through the forty things that I had bottled up. And giving myself the space (quite literally) was an added bonus.
Dealing with what I needed to deal with was personal. I think that everyone sorts through their issues in different ways, but it’s most important to just remember to deal. Deal in your own way. Deal completely. And deal now before it grows even bigger.
This is more of a reminder to myself than anything else. I really do hate slowing down for the boredom reasons, but also fear the thought of having to work through whatever problems I’m having. But, at the end of the day, after I really process what’s happened, I end up in a much (much) better place.
Do you “bottle” emotions? How to do you slow down and deal with things?