And then, while crying on the phone with my mom, I had this epiphany moment. “Wait,” I thought, “I’m actually doing pretty great. I love my job. I’m having such a fun time at this point in my life. My friends and I have great relationships. I have all these amazing opportunities coming my way and I’m handling everything pretty great.”
I started to see myself differently.
It may have felt like I was failing and flailing, but I actually wasn’t. And once I opened my own eyes to that and turned down the volume of that critic (it seems like there will always be some kind of voice!), everything felt less…. complicated.
Just like the movie it feels so obvious now.
Of course how I feel about myself and how I value myself affects my thoughts, my success, my relationships.
Which brings me to the point of this post. I have turned into the go-to girl for my friends when it comes to relationships. I’m not a relationship expert, but I’ve found myself bringing this super simple thought process to everything. I’m more like a broken record telling my friends the same thing every time they feel down or frustrated with dating.
You’re worth so much more.
You’re worth so much more than 2am text messages, or unanswered text messages for that matter. You’re worth so much more than ghosting, and nitpicking. You’re worth so much more than being ignored and put down.
I’ve had a handful of conversations with some of my closest friends recently and the story is always the same. It’s completely disheartening for me, as a friend, to hear the frustration and sadness and confusion that they experienced dating. And I get it. I’ve been there.
Instead of focusing on the bad things that are going on, I try to ask them what they’re missing in the relationship, what they want. And it’s always that they just want someone who’s nice. Nice. That’s it! There’s no long checklist of obstacles, physical traits, and background information. Nice. Is that too much to ask for? I don’t think so.
Then I launch into my friend mode telling them why they deserve someone who’s nice. Why they shouldn’t be with anyone who isn’t nice. It’s not about the other person in the relationship. It’s about you. When you realize just how much you’re worth and what you bring to the table, it’s impossible to accept anything less than that.
Spend some time figuring out what makes you amazing. (This is great for more than just relationships, of course.)
What really ends up happening is that you have enough confidence to realize what you do and don’t deserve and enough confidence to not get into wrong relationships. (Or get out if you realize it’s not working.) And when you’re in a relationship, you know your value. You don’t have to sit there and question every single thing wondering if you made a mistake or if you’re enough for the person. You are, because you’re you.
(And anyone who doesn’t realize that is just not worth it.)
PS I’m such a huge believer in positive thinking. I think this falls somewhere in that area of thought.