But, I have an announcement to make and it’s one that I have spent a really long time deliberating over. And it’s one that I’m struggling to really capture into words. (This would be the lemon part.)
I’m moving on from Sweet Lemon. The #LemonLove issue will be my last one.
I came up with the idea for a digital magazine featuring (and written by) twenty-somethings June of 2011. I knew that this was something that people would want to read because it was something that I would want to read.
Working on the magazine was absolutely the hardest thing I’ve ever done. The biggest group project I worked on at school only lasted a semester. This took group projects to an entirely new level. I wore a million hats between managing the teams, dealing with crisises, and working through an absolutely overflowing inbox. This was all while I was finishing up my final year at Georgetown and ultimately while I tried to balance my life while working in Manhattan.
I thought I could do it, but in reality I was stretched way too thin. Also, I found myself really not enjoying what I was doing. Maybe it was a combination of constantly feeling overwhelmed and doing tasks that really weren’t my personal strengths. Launching a new issue was always stressful, and always amazing.
Hearing from readers. Working on fun features. Watching readers and writers connecting online (and offline). Meeting new people. It was amazing. It is amazing.
Right now, however, it’s not the right thing for me to be doing. I am living my dreams (quite literally) in New York City. My job is incredible and I really enjoy blogging… plus my side projects always keep me more than busy.
As the magazine grew, I fell more and more out of love with it. Here I am advocating “living your dreams” and I was actually not doing everything I could to be living mine. By doing something that I didn’t completely love, I was taking away time from enjoying life and my other priorities.
If I’m going to be honest, I held off leaving the magazine for selfish reasons. The SLM team is fully capable of running the magazine without me. So that isn’t the issue. I was afraid of having to tell people that I wasn’t involved. I liked being able to say that I founded a digital magazine. Essentially, I was lying to myself to fulfill this desire to “have it all.”
So while I won’t be on the SLM staff, I will always be rooting for its success.
The past 18 months have been wonderful. The friends I’ve met and what I’ve learned about myself along the way are things I wouldn’t trade for the world.
I hope this makes sense and I hope you understand. It’s not something I’ve taken lightly and I admit that it’s something I’ve completely done for myselfˆ, but it was something I realized I truly needed to do.
I'm so sad to see you leave the magazine however I completely understand, I am consistently stretching myself too thin and sometimes it is best to have fewer projects and be able to devote yourself to those projects whole heartedly.
I think it's amazing that you've been able to step back and make a decision that's right for YOU! You've accomplished so much with Sweet Lemon, and you've set the ball rolling for its future success! You're such an inspiration Carly; I don't think any of us readers can ever truly fathom how you manage to be so amazing at so many things all at the same time!!!
#thatawkwardmomentwhen copy and paste doesn't work in your favor… What I meant to say: It's a big step to be able to say no to something because you know you have too much on your plate. Life can't be all work, there has to be some play. I am looking forward to what you have in store next, Carly!!
SLM is a wonderful thing to be proud of, Carly, and I seriously love every single issue. You created an incredible magazine and you did a great job with it. Don't be worried about people not understanding why you had to leave, it's a 100% real and true reason and it's definitely understandable, I don't blame you!
SLM is amazing and you should be proud 🙂 You're such an inspiration, Carly!
It takes a brave person to start a new venture, but an even braver one to know when it's time to step away. You clearly have both in spades. What a treasure that you were part of Sweet Lemon Mag in its very beginning and how special that you'll get to continue to watch it grow and evolve while taking on new adventures of your own. Best wishes to you in this new chapter!
I very much know how you feel- I recently stepped away from something that was a HUGE part of my life for seven years. But in the end, it has absolutely been the best for me personally.
It takes a very strong person to understand when it's time to walk away. Thank you for a wonderful and honest post, it inspired me to realistically look at my life and reevaluate certain things. As usual, you hit the idea right on the head. Cheers!
This might have been my favorite post of yours ever, it takes a lot of strength and honesty to write and do what you just did. But no matter if you leave the magazine, we will all remember who started it:) I can't wait to see what other big things you are going to do with your life,and all your other dreams that you'll fill! -Anna http://www.steppingintoprep.blogspot.com
As hard as it is do something, I think it is often harder to step back and NOT do something because of the reasons you gave; so good for you! You will still always be the co-founder and the person who built such a capable team that they can run it by themselves, and that is something to be extremely proud of.
I have been calling myself a Chill Mom™️ since having Jack and now I’m realizing that I’m even chiller with Rory. (Like is birth order really less about sibling order and more about the version of mom you’re born to?) I’ve been just rolling with Rory’s infancy and I’m so much happier. Maybe it’s just that I’m more tired with a toddler too, or know that it’s going to go by so fast, or just have more confidence… probably a combination. I feel less obsessive and less stressed out by the details. I’m “making it” without having to fake it. As an example, today I noticed I hadn’t tracked a single nap- just watching sleepy cues and trying to get to a “good enough” pattern as Rory’s naps consolidate. Is he following a ~perfect~ nap schedule? No. Are we thriving? Frankly, yes!
(If you want to read my original Chill Mom post, comment “chill mom” and l’ll send it to you via DM!)
We came, we saw elephants, we ate ice cream 🐘🦒🦓 @ashleybrooke and I always talk about how we became FAST friends. Somehow we have been right there with each other during some of life’s worst moments… so it’s extra sweet that we now get to celebrate the good ones! Watching our boys play together, a little baby in a stroller, and another baby on the way… it’s everything we dreamed of.
Somehow yesterday felt like a week, last month was last year, and last year was a decade ago… but then time is simultaneously going by so fast too. The past ten weeks have gone by in a blink! Everyone warns you it goes by fast and they’re not wrong…. The days are long but oh how I wish time would slow down a bit? Or that maybe I could bottle up a tiny bit of these precious boys at every stage so I could revisit them down the road 🤍
I have grown to LOVE baby wearing. Not only do I think it’s such a nice and cozy way to bond with baby, it’s also incredibly practical, especially when you have a toddler to keep up with too! The @wildbird aerial carrier was a treat for myself- and I’m so obsessed with it. 👶🏼 Leave a comment “wildbird” and I’ll DM you the color I have as well as my personal review of it (including some troubleshooting tips).
Some top level things I like; - it’s easy to put on! - it’s so, so comfortable (for me AND baby!) - the little flap is seamless and provides extra support while baby naps and privacy when we need/want it
This affordable rechargeable LED lamp is cute and then made even cuter with this wicker lampshade! 💡✨ No cords needed- just charge and place wherever you want. (Will be extra perfect for dining outdoors this summer!) 💫 Comment “lamp” and I’ll send you links to the LED lamp ($38 for a pair!) and the lampshade (available in a few styles- including a darling blue).
Not really in the mood to be in photos right now, but I keep telling myself I’ll want to look back on these moments and remember them. (Right?!) when I look at these photos in 10, 20, 30 years…
I hope I remember Jack “rescuing” Rory from a windy tent, not how I stood in front of my closet with tears in my eyes.
I hope I remember watching Jack roll down hills and play hop scotch and scoot down the sidewalk with his besties, not that I caught a glimpse of my reflection and didn’t recognize myself.
I hope I remember sitting outside with my friend happily watching our kids play (while watching the minutes until bedtime tick by), and not that I spent too much time zooming in and examining every new wrinkle on my face.
I hope I remember the pure joy of these early warm days with my little family whom I love so much 🤍
The weather is warming up and I’m feeling slightly more comfortable in my skin every day ☀️ Here’s what I wore last week as a mom of two. I have a two and a half year old toddler and a two month old so I need outfits I feel good in, can chase a little guy around in, AND that I can breastfeed easily while wearing. 🔗 Leave a comment with “OUTFITS” to get links to every outfit I wore!
I'm so sad to see you leave the magazine however I completely understand, I am consistently stretching myself too thin and sometimes it is best to have fewer projects and be able to devote yourself to those projects whole heartedly.
Good for you for being able to evaluate what makes sense for you. xo
I think it's amazing that you've been able to step back and make a decision that's right for YOU! You've accomplished so much with Sweet Lemon, and you've set the ball rolling for its future success! You're such an inspiration Carly; I don't think any of us readers can ever truly fathom how you manage to be so amazing at so many things all at the same time!!!
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#thatawkwardmomentwhen copy and paste doesn't work in your favor… What I meant to say: It's a big step to be able to say no to something because you know you have too much on your plate. Life can't be all work, there has to be some play. I am looking forward to what you have in store next, Carly!!
This made me tear up!
SLM is a wonderful thing to be proud of, Carly, and I seriously love every single issue. You created an incredible magazine and you did a great job with it. Don't be worried about people not understanding why you had to leave, it's a 100% real and true reason and it's definitely understandable, I don't blame you!
SLM is amazing and you should be proud 🙂 You're such an inspiration, Carly!
-Briana 🙂
royallypink.blogspot.com
It takes a brave person to start a new venture, but an even braver one to know when it's time to step away. You clearly have both in spades. What a treasure that you were part of Sweet Lemon Mag in its very beginning and how special that you'll get to continue to watch it grow and evolve while taking on new adventures of your own. Best wishes to you in this new chapter!
Congratulations, Carly!
I very much know how you feel- I recently stepped away from something that was a HUGE part of my life for seven years. But in the end, it has absolutely been the best for me personally.
Best wishes for your happiest life possible!
KK
It takes a very strong person to understand when it's time to walk away. Thank you for a wonderful and honest post, it inspired me to realistically look at my life and reevaluate certain things. As usual, you hit the idea right on the head. Cheers!
This might have been my favorite post of yours ever, it takes a lot of strength and honesty to write and do what you just did. But no matter if you leave the magazine, we will all remember who started it:) I can't wait to see what other big things you are going to do with your life,and all your other dreams that you'll fill!
-Anna
http://www.steppingintoprep.blogspot.com
It's so hard to figure out what you really want, and even harder to act on it. Good for you for doing what you know is right!
As hard as it is do something, I think it is often harder to step back and NOT do something because of the reasons you gave; so good for you! You will still always be the co-founder and the person who built such a capable team that they can run it by themselves, and that is something to be extremely proud of.